In my walk with God, He sometimes leads me to read/listen to the perfect passage of scripture, chapter in a devotional, or sermon prior to a trap that I am about to fall into, and it enables me to avoid it all together. Other times, typically when I am dealing with a reoccurring weakness or defect of faith, I am given the lesson After the stumble, driving home the need to be more vigilant against negative emotional or thought patterns that seem to be etched deeply from the path having been trodden time and time again. Only in the aftermath of a situation am I able to absorb a truth; only when the lies that have a way of raising their voice, have wrecked havoc on my emotions, do things calm and quiet to a degree that the whisper of God can reach my ringing ears.
Today, a chapter, and more specifically a passage from the book, The Best Yes, by Lyda Terkeurst, was God whispering to me. ‘You are safe. You are cherished. I am still on the throne. All is well. You are not going to drown. I see you. I know you. I love you. I can be trusted.’
I had already floundered and found the edge of the pool yesterday, but literally woke up with an emotional hangover from having allowed my insecurities to choke me into a panic yesterday. This morning was a perfect time for reflecting and recognizing what caused me to stumble.
“That’s the thing about insecurity. When it grips us, the very thing we need most- truth-is the very thing we have a hard time grasping. There is a sad and startling statistic about drowning: almost half of all drownings occur less than 80 inches from safety. I can be close to truth but still be drowning with my insecurities. I can have true sitting on my nightstand. I can have it preach to me on Sundays. I can have it sent to me through the you version Bible app. Yes, life-saving truth can be so very close. But grasping onto it and standing on it and letting it shift my thinking away from panic-that something that requires truth to be more than just close.
That requires truth to be inside me, guiding me, rewiring my thinking, and whispering, “safety is right here. And security will stop choking you when you remove its grip. Insecurity only has power over you when you allow it control over your thoughts….
We must let our identity, not our insecurity, be the first thing that walks into every situation we face- every decision we make.”